The Lexinary

I've been dancing with the concept of wholeness for quite some time. For so long I felt fractured and at times as if the pieces would never quite fit back together. But this idea that I'm some perfect mold that needs to be maintained didn't always sit well with me. Recently I've come to see myself more in fluid motion, rather than as a static mold. Conversations with friends over the past year have  solidified the idea that as we grow and adapt we don't find a new mold to fit in to, but rather we find ourselves in perpetual motion. Malleable and always reconfiguring. We learn to bend, even when we feel like we might break in half.  Especially during times of transitional stages in life. Single to married, no kids to kids, living at home to living on your own, high school jobs to careers, elementary education to graduate studies. Any time we are asked to rise to a new level of thought, to pursue our passions with a bold diligence or foster healthy, communicative rela...

I can’t tell you how many times this week, really even in the past three days, I’ve reached for my phone to check one of my social media accounts; only to realize they no longer exist on that device. It’s verges on embarrassing, that’s how many times y’all. This instinctual habit, to grab for technology even when you don't have intentional use for it, is one of the biggest reasons I choose to forgo a year off social media. I found it had become a time suck.  Instead of living in the moment, I was constantly staging photos to be "insta-worthy". I was also letting the photos and videos posted by others, and the feelings they brought up within me, dictate my life and my emotional well being. Now, I know everyone may not be personally susceptible to the feelings that social media directly brought out within me. And I most certainly I don’t expect everyone to choose to walk away from it for a time. But I’m going to be a bit vulnerable in the next few paragraphs in hopes that ...